It's no mystery that I have been trying to loose weight for most of my adult life.
Those who know me personally can tell you that I have tried it all. I am always lookin' for the next fad diet. It's crazy but oh so true.
I have tried everything from Slim Fast to Dr. Bernstein (and everything else in between) Nothing works long term. That is truly the funny part. Everything I've ever tried has worked for me initially. Then, something happens. My mind gets all blood crazy and I just STOP! I stop dieting. I stop working out. I stop caring. I know this is something I HAVE TO DO for my health and to just "look/feel good" but most of the time I just don't give a shit. Wrong attitude, I'm aware!
It's just that I put so much damn emphasis on it. It's the first thing I think of when I wake up each morning, the last thing I think of before I fall asleep and of course the only thing I think of (next to men) every other hour in between. I just want to do it already and get it over with. I'm so sick of the fact that I have spent so much time overweight, unhappy, undesirable (to some - fuck them) and unfulfilled because of geing a "bigger girl"
Good Lord, the things I would do if I were thinner. Man! I would rule the world, no doubt!!
I would be the woman I was meant to be, all the time. I'd be a world traveller -full of life, Sexy, Confident, Vivacious, Ready and willing to embark on any adventure thrown my way. Not to mention the fact that I would probably be the most promiscuous sex object this side of the hemisphere!!! LOL
I love men, and they love me (for the most part) but I know I'd be a million times more desirable to all of them if I was thinner. Sex three times of day, exploring different partners, positions and places. It would be great. Course, I'd have to get rid of my boyfriend first..lol I don't think he'd mind. He hasn't touched me in forever and dammit I need to be touched. A LOT!!!!
So, first order of business: Must loose weight this year for good this time. No more of this "yo-yo dieting" or loosing 50 pounds and gaining back 60. It's ridiculous, not to mention what it must be doing to me internally. Secondly: Must kick my boyfriend out of my bed and my life. However, the order of these resolutions is not important. It just needs to be done!!!!
